im wondering, when you get detached, are you still attached to anything? its like a spiritual death. my spirit was dormant. so there was no emotion. which makes me think, emotion must lie in the spiritual part of you. because i know thats what it was. when i lost faith and everything and didnt care REALLY didnt care anymore..
i was conciously aware of things though. obviously. i could get dressed and do makeup and drive my car and go places and see people but none of it meant anything. if youre brain dead, is your spirit still inside? i wonder how it all works.
theres no one part of your brain thats like "this is your conciousness, your being" is there? if youre brain dead, your spirit has to still be there, cause youre still alive, but you must not even know it. does it take death to have spiritual release?
do you still think thoughts? like, im staring at the ceiling because i cant move or speak or do anything else, do you think that thought? or is there really nothing there? there has to be nothing there or else you wouldnt be brain dead. but where is your spirit?
how do doctors know youre really gone? vegetable? i hate that word because it makes me feel sick thinking about it. thinking of someone i know like that, or myself like that. im just so wierd feeling right now. i dont even know a word that could explain it logically.
if im ever on a machine that is making me breath cause my body cant or making my heart beat because mine cant, i say no. its against the natural course of life. and it would be selfish for family or people to keep you on a machine thats living for your body. your spirit must be gone then. just floating there above the old flesh, waiting for the family that loves you to let you go. but its not YOU, its just your body. your organs and your skin.
without the spirit, there is no conciousness.
idk how it dwells in us. thats the thing thats so amazing is that God made us all bodies that work so awesome and do all these things, but how did he get the spirit to dwell inside? where does our conciousness lie?
so many questions. i dont want to know the answer though. i think if i knew it would be terrible for me. it would change me.
i dont want to know.